I am now more than 30 days free of my antidepressant.
Yes, after 7 years and a very long weaning process, I am off and feeling fantastic.
I can once again cry tears of joy, as well as tears of sorrow and frustration.
I feel like I’m living in colour again.
I have also noticed that I don’t have the same manic reaction to alcohol that I did before. I can have one glass of wine and not crave more. It’s been oddly amazing. After spending much of the year (mostly) sober, I was wondering if I would be able to have the occasional glass of wine. Amazingly, it appears to be so. For the past two months, I have had the occasional drink with no side effects, no overdrinking and more importantly, no desire to overdrink. Over the past year, I’ve set up the habit of drinking fake beer and non-alcoholic drinks. My friends no longer see me as someone to party with but still seem to love me all the same.
Now, I need to get back to the diet and exercise. Curse you, Hot Summer Nights and your lazy days with lots of yummy food and no exercise.
I am looking forward to getting back to work in September. As much as I love vacation time, I crave routine.
Now, off to bed.
(Did I mention how much better I sleep without the anti-depressant? Bliss.)